Popular Nigerian lesbian, Amara, has shared a video of herself sorting out her sexual orientation and choice with her mother.
In the video Amara shared on her Instagram page, Amara noted to her mother that she was not a sin and that her choice to remain a lesbian was beyond her control.
Her mother was heard telling her that people pointed fingers at her because her daughter was a lesbian and that it was Amara who gave them headlines.
Captioning the post, Amara wrote:
“Yesterday the woman who birthed me and I had one of the most difficult conversations we’ve ever had.
At the end, it was clear I should stop coming to hers if I didn’t want to feel like a sin, or be told that I am a sin.
she said people laugh at her when she walks down the street and I must be a selfish child to not think of my family and how my choices causes everyone pain. I was able to tell her repeatedly “Mummy I am not a sin, I am not the reason you are hurting, you are hurting because Nigerians are judgemental and you won’t pick me, your child”
she said she can’t pick me nor support me. said she just can’t. until I stop being a lesbian she can’t be proud of me. she can’t be happy with me. she said of all her problems, I’m the number one. that I’m causing her so much pain and she cries because of me. said her god will fight her enemies, the ones who possessed me to be a lesbian.
right now, I’m on my bed, my head is banging, my body’s temperature is rising, I don’t want to be awake but I can’t sleep. I’m sad, I’m really sad.
somewhere along the line, I kind of nurtured and believed the idea that if I tried harder, my birth family will see me and respect me, but yesterday’s conversation made it clear that they don’t want a lesbian in their family. they don’t, they can’t.
Their perfect perfect family is ruined if they accept that one of the children is a lesbian, so I’ve decided it’s time. it’s time, I’m extremely tired. it’s time. I’m done. I’m completely and utterly done. until they call for me with love, I’m not going back to that house again.
I didn’t want to accept it but I have to now, I’m a lesbian woman and my birth family is utterly ashamed of me and doesn’t want me close. so, I’m done. I’m gone. it is done. I’m tired. I’m so so tired. I’m tired. I can’t keep trying. I’m tired. I’m tired. It’s done.”
Watch the video below: